Fresh Start

I look at this blog and it is all over the place. I need to get my act together. It's time to organize everything - not just here, but my life where a lot of things are happening/not happening and most stuff are put on hold and just waiting. It's frustrating that I've said this so many times before and disappointing too that I never follow through. 


I like lists, I make it everyday but the one long (and more important) list of my things to do has been gathering dust. You can barely see the writing since the lead has worn off. I always make a new one - but I end up writing the same things all over again. I'm tired of saying it and for not doing it.


It almost seems like it is a cycle, which really boils down to what I really want in life. What is my goal and how do I make it? Make it so that I am happy and the people around me are happy. There is so much to do, so many options (which I am thankful for) that I don't know which one to pick. 


I need a slap on the face, or a gentle nudge, or someone inspiring to snap me out of this black hole. Or maybe, I need to start all over again.